Reset Password
If you've forgotten your password, you can enter your email address below. An email will then be sent with a link to set up a new password.
Cancel
Reset Link Sent
If the email is registered with our site, you will receive an email with instructions to reset your password. Password reset link sent to:
Check your email and enter the confirmation code:
Don't see the email?
  • Resend Confirmation Link
  • Start Over
Close
If you have any questions, please contact Customer Service
Find BBW Hookups Now
Forgot password?
Blogs > Angela51758 > My Blog

The Price of Honesty  

Angela51758 66T
11 posts
6/15/2011 9:56 pm
The Price of Honesty

Testosterone round two. The endocronologist I'm seeing has run about every test possible and can't find any reason for my T levels to be so low(40). He is just not convinced that I can't be fixed with T shots. So now I get T shots every three weeks and guess what, No Change At All! He really wants me to come out to my wife and wants me to bring her along to an appointment so we can tell her together.

Uh oh. Wife found giant dildo under the sink in my bathroom. Okay it is mine and I like to slide in my butt. "It's Huge!" Well have you seen my butt lately? Before she could really get going with the questions she pissed me off so bad I left the house for awhile.

The next evening at dinner she started grilling me. Okay, it's time I said to myself and I told her everything.

More questions the next evening. More answers from me. Tears, lots of tears. We just may survive this, I think...

With Love,
Angela XOXO

Christina_Cathy 77T
4 posts
6/23/2011 9:40 pm

 The price of honesty is quite the title.
When I started transitioning I was always asked if I could pay the price. At first I couldn't and just worked on my social skills, all the while hiding behind a "cardboard cutout" depicting what others thought I should be, all the while lying to myself.

If the price to transition is less than the price to remain in status quo, why continue. You just may have found your level of comfort along the trail up and over that mountain, just set up camp and enjoy the view.
However, in my case, the price of status quo kept going up and was equal to the price of transitioning, and soon became higher than the old status quo. It was at that point I really started transitioning and coming to terms with myself. There are lots of mountains/speedbumps (depends on which side of them you are on)to climb along the journey. Bringing your family and friends up to speed on your intentions.
Tears are a part of this. I spent over a month crying which was hard to cover up, before I even told my family. After I told them, I thought I would be devastated and went to my bed, threw myself on it and prepared to cry. After a few minutes of nothing, I looked in the mirror and was shocked to see a grin. Relief can be a very strong emotion that will mask your other emotions, so beware.

You got to watch my beginnings and the anguish I felt going through all that and now I can say I must be blessed because all my family and friends are still with me except one, the one your so desperately trying to hold on to. The rest just got closer.
I wish you all the best Angela, I really do.

The price of honesty may seem high, but the cost of not being honest is your soul.
Huggles, Chrissy


Become a member to create a blog