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Just some thoughts  

redheadedguy35 52M
41 posts
12/26/2011 4:15 am
Just some thoughts

Hi again, well, Christmas is now over, Yaaay!!! Although it was good to see my that I haven't seen for a while (since we had a fight) and to hang out with the family, I am glad that that the whole thing is over.

Well, here is the latest, I did go out to the bar this weekend, and, yes, the ex was there, surprisingly without the boy toy, and I tried my best to stay as far away as possible, but as the alcohol poured, I found myself, asking her for a dance, which she accepted, and we danced to a slow song, and talked just a bit, then as we danced, I found myself, getting a little too close to her, and I told her that I better back off, cause she had told me once, that she didn't want to be around me when I am drunk, cause I get too affectionate, so I mentioned that back to her, and she said you're okay, so after the dance, we both went back to our separate places at the bar, and didn't speak the rest of the night, except that after she left, I called her and got her voice mail, and just told her Merry Christmas.

Well, that was then, She hasn't responded back to me, although she did text my to wish them a Merry Christmas, which kind of hurt me, cause she didn't bother to wish me one, but oh well, what can you do?

So I guess that my holidays were filled with good times, and not so good times, Maybe New Years will be better.

AK_Snowflake 48F
339 posts
12/26/2011 8:24 am

 Okay, enough! Stay away from the ex. You are exes for a reason, the emotions are still there for both of you. She didn't text you because she's trying to be done. You should be doing the same!
Find a new place to hang out, or better yet, stop going to bars all together. Have you tried therapy?


redheadedguy35 52M
65 posts
12/26/2011 9:40 am

 Thanks jeep_fun, You are probably right, but if I enjoy this bar, I have met some other friends there, yes, it may tear me up, emotionally to see her, but that is something that she will never see, that is why I write it here, so I can get it out, I am sorry if I don't write about my sex-capes, and write about my real life.

And on that note, just because you cover a wound with a bandage, doesn't mean that the wound isn't still there, and if I stop going because she is there, what does that say about me, that I'm just the kind to turn tail and run, instead of facing my demons head on, I know that eventually, I will not feel this way, but I am not going to lock myself up, and stay home and be a miserable wreck in the meantime.

What really upset me was that she said Merry Christmas to my kids, and not me, I mean if she really wants to be done, then don't associate with my kids either.

And as far a therapy, what a joke, the only thing that it is good for is making the therapist rich, so not an option.

This is my therapy, and it doesn't cost me an arm or a leg, and if nobody even reads this, then I still am getting my emotions out, a healthy way instead of letting them get the better of me.


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