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Just thinking Today, I've been too much in my own head. I feel so heavy, like with every step I take, I sink deeper and deeper. So at times like this, I just withdraw. I need to process things. It's not that I'm sad. I'm just contemplating. I wonder why all my life I've been shamed for how I view or think about things. In only a month, I've been shown more consideration, kindness and acceptance here, then I've ever felt. Good girl, bad girl these labels use to drive me crazy. I've always been different from those around me. Always having to raise above others' ignorance and judgements. Always having to bite my tongue and just nod my head. Alot of things I will never understand or maybe with time I will grow to understand. But at this point? I can't see the logic of it. |
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I've had those days too. Never be ashamed of who you are and how you view things. It's your life and live it on your terms. I am beginning life again at 50 and don't have all the answers. I don't think I ever will. That's the thing about life, there's always something new every day!   Rachel Mae
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I've had those days too, my friend. It's hard for us sexually liberated women, we get so much negativity from all kinds of sources. But, we are strong, and we can rise above with the help of Our Friends. Check out my latest post....I twerked for you Live life to it's fullest! If you're bored, Read Hugs Gypsy
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For you  Who wants to see an ASSLive life to it's fullest! If you're bored, Read Hugs Gypsy
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8/29/2016 4:06 pm |
I have those kinds of days too. Time seems to answer the questions in my head. "Sweet, steamy, sensuous kisses light the bright fires of passionate lust within us." scott6250
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For many reasons I have had much the same experience. What I've learned over time is the people who make you feel that way are just not worrying about. If they can neither understand nor accept that is their problem and you can't fix them. So don't just believe in who you are, relish it, celebrate it and embrace it. Being wonderful is always the best ending.
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i mentioned in a previous post that at an early age i found a quote in latin that stood me well over the years..illigitima non carborundum..which loosely translates to...dont let the bastards grind ya down. woop woop
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For many reasons I have had much the same experience. What I've learned over time is the people who make you feel that way are just not worrying about. If they can neither understand nor accept that is their problem and you can't fix them. So don't just believe in who you are, relish it, celebrate it and embrace it. Being wonderful is always the best ending. Live life to it's fullest! If you're bored, Read Hugs Gypsy
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I've had those days too. Never be ashamed of who you are and how you view things. It's your life and live it on your terms. I am beginning life again at 50 and don't have all the answers. I don't think I ever will. That's the thing about life, there's always something new every day!
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I've had those days too, my friend. It's hard for us sexually liberated women, we get so much negativity from all kinds of sources. But, we are strong, and we can rise above with the help of Our Friends. Check out my latest post....I twerked for you  I wrote a post about you. Your video was the first thing I saw when I came back on. (Y) Can I smack it? That another thing I'm wondering about. I mean other then smacking your ass.  Why should I accept their negativity or ignorant views? I thought that I was the oddball. That weird girl with the boyfriend and a girlfriend or 2 boyfriends or 2 girlfriends. The judgment and rumors. Didn't mean for that to sound ranty.
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I know. I wrote a post about you. Your video was the first thing I saw when I came back on. (Y) Can I smack it? That another thing I'm wondering about. I mean other then smacking your ass. Why should I accept their negativity or ignorant views? I thought that I was the oddball. That weird girl with the boyfriend and a girlfriend or 2 boyfriends or 2 girlfriends. The judgment and rumors. Didn't mean for that to sound ranty.Maybe I should be more careful, though. Now that I'm thinking on it more, it could come across wrong. Especially if I don't know someone. Above is stream of consciousness writing. Now, you don't sound ranty at all. You shouldn't, We shouldn't accept anyone's views of us as "the word of God". I believe we all get to decide who we are, and who we want to be. I'm a naughty little nymph who enjoys getting to know people before engaging in sex with them. I'm a slut for my local boyfriend I'm daddy's little girl for my boyfriend up north I'm the bus fairy, when I ride the Greyhound to visit family and friends And, I'm Debbi, this amazing, and not so amazing writer, mother, and philosopher. And, I'm proud to call myself your friend. Live life to it's fullest! If you're bored, Read Hugs Gypsy
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I have those kinds of days too. Time seems to answer the questions in my head.  Yeah. I grow, learn and experience life, hopefully in time I can gain understanding.
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For many reasons I have had much the same experience. What I've learned over time is the people who make you feel that way are just not worrying about. If they can neither understand nor accept that is their problem and you can't fix them. So don't just believe in who you are, relish it, celebrate it and embrace it. Being wonderful is always the best ending.
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 .... as eager as you seem to be to learn I'm quite sure you'll come to understand much of the logic .....though from all I've seen and learned in my life I'm also inclined to believe that about the only way to fully understand all the logic that drives reality and the actions of all who reside in it would be to be God. Of course that's just my opinion, since as much as I've learned in my life it seems every new bit of knowledge brings so many more questions with it. However, with regards to blogging I do have one word of caution that may seem trite - while there are many open minded individuals on the blogs, it's not all pleasant, and it's not always obvious who would cause problems - and neither is the extent of the problems they can/would cause (I've known of some instances where people's children have been publicly identified, or criminal activity has occurred) --- so I guess this place is just like any where else in life really. ........ wow, just realizing how long I've been an off and on blogger on this site, and it's making me feel old.... make that really old. 
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Of course you can, I think of it like football. One can often find me running through the "field" smacking asses. I don't mean any harm to others when I do it, it's just me being goofy. Maybe I should be more careful, though. Now that I'm thinking on it more, it could come across wrong. Especially if I don't know someone. Above is stream of consciousness writing. Now, you don't sound ranty at all. You shouldn't, We shouldn't accept anyone's views of us as "the word of God". I believe we all get to decide who we are, and who we want to be. I'm a naughty little nymph who enjoys getting to know people before engaging in sex with them. I'm a slut for my local boyfriend I'm daddy's little girl for my boyfriend up north I'm the bus fairy, when I ride the Greyhound to visit family and friends And, I'm Debbi, this amazing, and not so amazing writer, mother, and philosopher. And, I'm proud to call myself your friend.  Lol. I can just see you doing that. I prefer to rub on the girls' booties and feeling the guys' cocks. I just want to see how big it is. Oops, I think he is getting hard. Act cool and he won't notice I'm rubbing his dick on purpose. Like that? I'm a nerd, who wants to get fucked in a library. I love meeting new people and learning about how they think. ( I'm a nerd for a reason ) I am also a daddy's little cocksucker who loves to please. I'm Stephanie. I'm a mother, philosopher, social scientist and an all around nerd. I'm proud to be your friend. {=} Right on your ass
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.... as eager as you seem to be to learn I'm quite sure you'll come to understand much of the logic .....though from all I've seen and learned in my life I'm also inclined to believe that about the only way to fully understand all the logic that drives reality and the actions of all who reside in it would be to be God. Of course that's just my opinion, since as much as I've learned in my life it seems every new bit of knowledge brings so many more questions with it. However, with regards to blogging I do have one word of caution that may seem trite - while there are many open minded individuals on the blogs, it's not all pleasant, and it's not always obvious who would cause problems - and neither is the extent of the problems they can/would cause (I've known of some instances where people's children have been publicly identified, or criminal activity has occurred) --- so I guess this place is just like any where else in life really. ........ wow, just realizing how long I've been an off and on blogger on this site, and it's making me feel old.... make that really old. Thank you for the caution. Hopefully I won't run across them
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i mentioned in a previous post that at an early age i found a quote in latin that stood me well over the years..illigitima non carborundum..which loosely translates to...dont let the bastards grind ya down.
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Not old, just wise. Thank you for the caution. Hopefully I won't run across themIt's been a long time since I've care enough to pay attention (or even spent enough time on here to pay attention), but at one point (and perhaps still) there was quite a bit of competitiveness and nasty drama/BS associated with being the "top" (i.e. the most commented on) blogger. So while eagles may soar, flying high above all in doing so they also make themselves visible targets for all who can reach them --- though how that gets handled depends on the eagle .....and just what it is that might be trying to drag them out of the sky (and the reason why)  
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8/29/2016 9:16 pm |
The whole good girl bad girl thing is bull shit. It all a way for someone to control another person. people dont want someone to chase their bliss. mainly because chasing you bliss is different than chasing mine. We have to be one... at all times.
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The whole good girl bad girl thing is bull shit. It all a way for someone to control another person. people dont want someone to chase their bliss. mainly because chasing you bliss is different than chasing mine. We have to be one... at all times.
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In that note, I'll share one more thing that may or may not still be holding true since the site under went a revision on how the blogs once appeared. It's been a long time since I've care enough to pay attention (or even spent enough time on here to pay attention), but at one point (and perhaps still) there was quite a bit of competitiveness and nasty drama/BS associated with being the "top" (i.e. the most commented on) blogger. So while eagles may soar, flying high above all in doing so they also make themselves visible targets for all who can reach them --- though how that gets handled depends on the eagle .....and just what it is that might be trying to drag them out of the sky (and the reason why) To be honest, I'm used to being a target. It's being welcome and accepted that I'm not use to. While I don't need others to validate me, it nice not to have to defend myself from an attack. I'll heed your caution, cause your analogy do hold true.
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They make themselves visible targets. To be honest, I'm used to being a target. It's being welcome and accepted that I'm not use to. While I don't need others to validate me, it nice not to have to defend myself from an attack. I'll heed your caution, cause your analogy do hold true. ....which in a way can really make things rather amusing when someone comes trying to tear/knock down what they thought was an eagle and they find out they were wrong......  .....the combination of realization, confusion and panic that occasionally shows up is just priceless (so yeah, I'm fan of the quote/concept "Speak softly and carry a big stick" )
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on this site of all places we should be able to accept each other with all our various kinks and quirks. I'm delighted that you feel at home here.  Become a member now and get a free tote bag.
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on this site of all places we should be able to accept each other with all our various kinks and quirks. I'm delighted that you feel at home here.
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Yeah I know the feeling of being a target far to well myself ....so of course I've probably turned into something of a dragon over the years (armored scales, fire-breathing, and all the rest) ....which in a way can really make things rather amusing when someone comes trying to tear/knock down what they thought was an eagle and they find out they were wrong...... .....the combination of realization, confusion and panic that occasionally shows up is just priceless (so yeah, I'm fan of the quote/concept "Speak softly and carry a big stick" ) Yeah, I remember the first time I fought back. The look on their face was priceless.
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So at times like this, I just withdraw. ... That's a good idea. Sometimes a vacation is in order. I wonder why all my life I've been shamed for how I view or think about things. ...This is a tricky one, and you're not alone. Everyone has gone through this , and especially as media continues to transform our perspectives since the 1970s, at least, everyone, you , I , just about anyone with a brain of their own will feel weighted down. I know many try to shame me, as well. It's a push to establish conformity according to what , I'm not sure, but it stinks. In only a month, I've been shown more consideration, kindness and acceptance here, then I've ever felt. ... That's the object these sites, sex minded or not, that focus is to find like minded people, or just listen to what's out there. Or even study what's out there. Good girl, bad girl these labels use to drive me crazy. ... Again , you're not alone. Reward and punishment. Good, bad, agree, disagree. Peer pressure. Mob pressure to conform. Usually very subtle, but it's there. Sometimes navigating streams of thought , your own, and from others, and projecting your own views, feels like being on a Mobius strip. Sometimes damned if you do, sometimes damned if you don't. I've always been different from those around me. ... That's okay, but you're going to attract a lot of flack for that. Always having to bite my tongue and just nod my head. ... Don't always do that. You let some moron get away with essentially saying, "If you have nothing nice to say [about my view], don't say anything". All that means is, "If you don't agree with me, shut up". Alot of things I will never understand or maybe with time I will grow to understand. .... That's the way it works if you keep yourself focused on your own path and not blindly follow the sheeple and lemmingples. But at this point? I can't see the logic of it. ... It will become clear in time, and you can agree with it, or you can take a bat and figuratively smack it down, but be prepared to stand your ground.
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